Looking At The Brighter Side Of Life

I know I have not been updating this blog for quite some time. Actually sometimes I don't even know what to write about. Issues lately have either been too much to the sensitive side or I'm afraid I'll just get too emotional again. I know crying doesn't really help solve problems. It's harder still when I've got to put on a smile just so people can't see the hurt inside.

On the brighter side, some of you who know, actually helped me a lot in solving certain issues and also helped me go through this heartache which I prefer not to talk about anymore. I just hope and probably make this a lesson I have to learn in life to appreciate the things I have and not regret and miss them when they're gone. A very hard, painful and expensive lesson indeed!!

Just hope things like these won't happen again. It's too painful.

最近

你最近不說話 怎么了 為什么
是不是有什么事讓你不快樂
听說你最近很孤單 有點亂 有點慌
可是我卻不能夠在你的身旁

你想要的 我卻不能夠給你我全部
我能給的 卻又不是你想要擁有的
我們不适合 也不想認輸
好几次我們抱著彼此都是想要哭
常解釋這樣的一切都只是開始
我覺得是所有的一切早已就結束
不想再約束不要再痛苦
下一次會有更好的情路

你最近不說話 怎么了 為什么
是不是有什么事讓你不快樂
听說你最近很孤單 有點亂 有點慌
可是我卻不能夠在你的身旁

你想要的 我卻不能夠給你我全部
我能給的 卻又不是你想要擁有的
我們不适合 也不想認輸
好几次我們抱著彼此都是想要哭
常解釋這樣的一切都只是開始
我覺得是所有的一切早就已結束
不想再約束不要再痛苦
下一次會有更好的情路

愛 我卻不能夠 給你我全部
我能給的 卻又不是你想要擁有的
你想要的 我卻不能夠給你我全部
我能給的 卻又不是你想要擁有的
我們不适合 也不想認輸
好几次我們抱著彼此都是想要哭
常解釋這樣的一切都只是開始
我覺得是所有的一切早已就結束
不想再約束不要再痛苦
下一次會有更好的情路

這一次我們都能很幸福

Can History Get Any More Worse?

Holidays are over. Classes have commence again.
Today was the first day back to classes and the first subject was F4: Corporate and Business Law. I didn't really know what was going on and I have a not so good feeling about this subject. It's like history rebirth and except much worse. All I knew was the lecturer said the word "law" many many times.. Oh well!!

My new timetable 'seems' more relaxed as now I only have 8am-6pm classes once a week. Other days are not as long. But I know it's not going to be that easy. There's no such thing as LIFE!!

I'm just saying these things to vent my frustration that the holidays are over and I can't sack the college admin. Really wished I could..

You'll Think Of Me

I woke up early this morning around 4am
With the moon shining bright as headlights on the interstate
I pulled the covers over my head and tried to catch some sleep
But thoughts of us kept keeping me awake
Ever since you found yourself in someone else's arms
I've been tryin' my best to get along
But that's OK
There's nothing left to say, but

Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need them
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me, you'll think of me

I went out driving trying to clear my head
I tried to sweep out all the ruins that my emotions left
I guess I'm feeling just a little tired of this
And all the baggage that seems to still exist
It seems the only blessing I have left to my name
Is not knowing what we could have been
What we should have been
So

Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need them
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me

Someday I'm gonna run across your mind
Don't worry, I'll be fine
I'm gonna be alright
While you're sleeping with your pride
Wishing I could hold you tight
I'll be over you
And on with my life

So take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need them
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me

So take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need them
Take your space and all your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we got nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me, you'll think of me, yeah

And you're gonna think of me
Oh someday baby, someday

Ijok Seafood

A group of 11 of us went to Ijok for some seafood. Heard that the food there is good so we decided to try it out.

We decided to go for the set meal they provided. However, reservations must be made first.

The menu

All the main course (except the fruits) came after only 20 minutes. The service was very fast.

Beggar's Chicken - their specialty


Zhu Shou (Pig's Knuckles)


Duck


Glutinous Rice


Soup - a bit pepperish

Steamed Fish


Prawns


Size of just one prawn


Crabs

The food is really good and portion is quite big. Price is somewhat reasonable considering there's so many dishes. =)

Relief!!

Exams are finally over. For the first time in these few weeks, I can actually breathe..

T8 Implementing Audit Procedures?
*I don't wanna.. talk about it.. how you broke my heart..*

T9 Preparing Taxation Computations?
There goes my RM1000..

Anyway, just glad it's all over and hopefully pass all papers...

Now enjoying the long-awaited holidays.. =)

T7 Exam

Today's paper: T7 Planning, Control and Performance Management

It rained even heavier today with lightning and thunder.

Today's paper was quite ok. Though I did not know how to do some of the theory questions..

Summary:
Question 1
(a) High-Low Method
(b) Standard MC
(c) CS ratio & BEP
(d) Variances
(e) Memorandum on variances

Question 2
(a) Limiting Factor
(b) Notes

Question 3
(a) Budget-between 2 alternatives
(b) Theory Question

Question 4
(a) Ratios
(b) Explain ratios
(c) Non-financial ratio - theory question

The hall after the exam

Two down, two to go...

T6 Exam

Today's paper: T6 Drafting Financial Statements

It was a rainy day. It poured and the wind was so strong. But as the wind and water (feng & shui) was present, hope everyone did well..

I can see Mel in her car..

The huru-haraness outside the hall

When I opened the paper, I had to laugh. Question 2 was preparing a cashflow statement (indirect method). Just before the exam, as in 1 hour before, I had Edwin teach me that as I totally forgotten how to do. So it came out, a 25-mark question. Problem is I managed to do part of it but I knew I can't get full marks as it didn't balance. But, thank God at least I went through it just before the exam or I wouldn't even be able to do at all. =)
I believe this paper I can pass. Maybe not 100 marks as Ms. Shanta would have expected but pass is good enough for me.. Just with question 1 alone, can pass already (I think).

Summary:
Question 1
(a) Income Statement & Appropriation Account (Incomplete Records)
(b) Capital Account of partners
(c) Statement of Financial Position

Question 2
(a) Cashflow Statement
(b) Comments on the company's financial position

Question 3
(a) Goodwill on acquisition
(b) Consolidated Income Statement
(c) some crappy 2-mark question

Question 4
(a) Ratios
(b) Comments on ratios
(c) can't remember..

But all in all.. It's okla..

Exam Blues

It's only 3 more days to the exams and I feel I'm not fully prepared. Just when I thought I could do the paper and start concentrating on other papers, they back-fire and show me that I'm not as good as I think I am. Maybe it's just my level of calmness is always more on the high side. I probably should start practicing the law of attraction and some of the stuff they say in The Secret by Rhonda Bryne. "I must pass all FOUR papers including audit" should keep playing in my mind again and again like a tape recorder.

Part of me feels confident in passing the papers excluding audit BUT as I look at it, I'm not too sure anymore. My MOCK results gave me some level of confidence in passing but I'm still feeling really nervous for the first time. Maybe I shouldn't mix so much with Mel.. (Ms Joyce advice) Nah.. She's good influence in the sense that she make me more kia-su over my studies as I tend to be quite tidak-apa sometimes..

Besides that, I just got an email from ACCA. It just made me more confused about the venue of my exams. They changed the venue of some of the papers. Just hope ACCA didn't screw up and gave us the wrong location, considering the fact that almost everyone is going to Sedaya when all of us registered for Sunway. Wonder who's gonna take the exam in Sunway then..

Now, I should get back to studying. Suffer in the present, reap rewards in the future. *I MUST pass all papers*

Tagged By Alex

Tagged by Simple Alex.. dunno why people keep tagging me.. =(

1. Link to your tagger and post these rules.
2. List eight (8) random facts about yourself.
3. Tag eight people at the end of this post and list their names.
4. Let them know they’ve been tagged by leaving them a comment on their blogs.
OK? All set?

-fact number 1-
I am left-handed

-fact number 2-
I get scared of a lot of things quite easily

-fact number 3-
I am a very choosy person especially when it come to food and clothes etc..

-fact number 4-
I sometimes have big dreams but no motivation to work towards it

-fact number 5-
I am a coffee-addict trying to fight addiction with no success

-fact number 6-
I let emotions get the better of me sometimes

-fact number 7-
I dream of going to Venice someday.. anyone wanna sponsor?

-fact number 8-
I really bad at recognizing people and remembering names..


Wasted so much of my time thinking those 8 things.. AND it's only random!!
I think a lot of my brain cells died in the process as well..

Tag:
1. Mel
2. Jasmyn
3. Darren
4. Zi Jian
5. Aaron
6. Vivian
7. Eric
8. Kenny

Back From Nowhere

After a hiatus, decided to post something before people start nagging and tagging me again.
As many of you all know I've not been feeling well. Having migraine for 3 straight days and nausea and flu for a whole week (still not recovered yet) and now having backaches.. And yes, I know it's not a good excuse for not blogging, BUT at least it's an excuse.. hehe..

Still thinking whether to go for the donation thing this Tuesday. I'm not scared of blood but more of worried it'll be pain and I don't want to faint there. A bit scary, I must say, as I've never done this before. Hope for the best, prepare for the worst. Sounds like going to war.

Sincere condolences to Teik Han on the passing of his grandfather.

Double Joy?

*we are the champions playing in the background*

Such a satisfying end to a wonderful season... =) Now for Champions League...

Don't worry I'm not gonna blab about them here.

Finally, Khar's present is bought. After around 7 hours of fruitless effort finding a gift, a second trip had to be made.






Happy birthday girl! And hope you like it.. :)

Life's Over, Back To No Life

One week of holiday is going to end. Back to study life, if that is even a life. This one week seems to pass so fast, in one blink of an eye, it's gone...

It's only 3 more weeks to finals and I'm not prepared for it at all. Feels terrible being a midnight oil burner but at the same time just can't pull my lazy self together and heed Ms. Joyce's advice. Exams are just round the corner as in the corner is already very near. EDC and EFC will be starting soon and I wonder will I be there staring at the lecturer thinking what on earth is going on? I hope not..

Weather is not helping in any way either. It's too hot. I think the sun is coming towards us. Nah, that's just some crazy hypothesis which doesn't make sense and is never going to happen. I blame it on the heat. Imagine getting headache after waking up from sleep and so hot that taking 2-3 baths a day is not enough. People suggest soaking in mud but hmm.. that'll probably make me sicker than I already feel I am. Maybe I'm just dreading going back to jail class. =(

Tagged By Mel

Instructions: Remove ONE question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

1. What have you realised recently?
My brains shut down after exam. Momentarily, at least. so Alvin, that half explains the reason for the awkward silence.

2. Have you given your first kiss away?
*looks to the sky*

3. If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 11 blog buddies you would take with you?
sounds bad to bring people to be stranded with me but oh well.. Mel, Darren & Jasmyn (since we're already stranded there), Jian, Aaron, Wen-Ly, Vivian, Kenny, Eric, Teik Han and Jun Hao (Yays! We can form a football team there!)

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
Anywhere where there's good food, company and attractions. :)

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
Only one ar?? I cant decide which..

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
Rainbows only happen when the sun rays are terbias (I studied Science in Malay so I don't know the English word for it) by the rain. That's the only thing I believe.

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
My hunger for God and passion for His work
 
8. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
No. Hehe.. That's his job :p

9. (my question) What is the thing you regret most in your life?
Not appreciating what I have

10.List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
About Mel:
- Has a sincere heart
- Loves God with all her heart
- Caring friend

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
Loves God; is there when I need him; hardworking/passionate about the things he does; determined; caring; makes me laugh; responsible and many more (case-to-case basis) :p

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
Selfish, irresponsible, irritating, insecure and overly sensitive people. But come to think of it, I shouldn't hate them. *so ashamed of myself and am repenting*

13. What is the one thing you cannot live without?
God and human basic needs

14. If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
Point out la.. Better for everyone

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
God and living for Him

16. Are you a shopaholic or not?
Depends if there's cash.. Hehe..

17. If your house burned down, what is the ONE thing you’d save from your room?
Err.. Important documents? Learnt from somewhere, not sure where..

18. If you have a chance. Which part of your character you would like to change?
The don't-care-attitude part and rude-if-i-find-you-irritating part.. Hehe..

19. Can i safely know your birthday dates ?
No.. Hehe.. But you already know mine so it's not safe anymore..

20. What kind of person are you? and why?
Still learning a lot of things and beginning to understand things better. I can be a really nice person as in I'm willing to go to great lengths to help a friend but I tend to mix less with someone whom I think I can't get along with due to various reasons, sometimes unwilling to accept that person for who he/she is. Maybe it's because of fear of being betrayed and hurt. So that's the reason why I don't have that many close friends.

I TAG :

1. Eric
2. Kenny
3. Aaron Low
4. Zi Jian
5. Vivian Tan

Lost In Wonder

Exams are over..
At last no more people nagging me to go sleep or study.. You know who you are.. =)
But I know you guys meant it for my own good..

Today is Good Friday.. The day the Lord died so we could live.
The lyrics of the song by Martyn Layzell is so so true..



Lost In Wonder
You chose the cross with every breath,
The perfect life, the perfect death,
You chose the cross.
A crown of thorns You wore for us,
And crowned us with eternal life,
You chose the cross.
And though Your soul was overwhelmed with pain,
Obedient to death You overcame.

I'm lost in wonder,
I'm lost in love,
I'm lost in praise forevermore.
Because of Jesus' unfailing love
I am forgiven, I am restored.

You loosed the cords of sinfulness
And broke the chains of my disgrace:
You chose the cross.
Up from the grave victorious,
You rose again so glorious:
You chose the cross.
The sorrow that surrounded You was mine,
'Yet not My will but Yours be done!' You cried.

Touching it is..

Calvary Church is having:

Good Friday Service
Time: 8pm
Venue: Calvary Church DH, DP, Cheras and Ampang

Youth- Turning Point
Time: 2pm-4pm
Venue: Calvary Church Damansara Heights

Easter Sunrise Service
Time: 6.30am
Venue: National Hockey Stadium, Bkt Jalil

Pastor Steven comments here

Anyway.. Blessed Easter... =)

SPM Results Out!!!

Today, SPM and STPM results are out...
Some did really well and sulk at their results and some did not so well but was overjoyed with it.. What's wrong with them (the former) lar?? Well, I'm in no position to say anything because I did the same thing when I took mine couple of years back (makes me sound so old). Some of you guys know, some don't but I cried when I saw that horrible piece of paper with small, tiny wordings on it.. But then now I look back and I couldn't really understand why I had to be sad about the results. After all, it's over and done with. No matter how much tears I shed, until become river also nothing will change. Secondly, my results weren't THAT bad. Wasn't what I expected, maybe because I had too high expectations. But I knew I deserved the results. I was lazy..
After that, it'll just be another piece of paper. No one's gonna ask you how many A's you got in SPM after you entered college. No one cares anymore if you only had 1A or 12A's. It'll probably only get you a JPA scholarship to go study agriculture in some remote country you can't even pronounce which you will then reject because you don't want to be a farmer and then go pay thousands of dollars to study something else.
That's the state of education these days in Malaysia. Some get straight A's and ended up getting scholarships to study agriculture and some get around 5A's and they get scholarships to study medicine in England. But what can we do? Nothing.. No wonder more people die from sickness these days..
Anyway, congratulations to those who did well but still sulk and those who are happy with theirs.
Chin Wynn 12A1's
Jun Hoe 11A1's 1A2
Hannah Aw 10A1's
Jamie Loke 10A1's
and a few others.. Congrats!!!

What's Your Problem?

A few of us went for the SAC Social Gathering last night. It was supposed to start at 6.30pm but it only started at nearly 8pm. Normal lah, Malaysians ma.. They had performances and lucky draws and food. The food was okay nia considering the fact that it's free. I stayed till around 10pm and I cabut la.. It was quite a good event and I did enjoy myself. I'm not really a huge fan of events like these but it was quite good, better than some others I've been to.

Rewinding...
Before that, we had around 2 hours plus of extra time (not idle time). So, we decided to go to the library (bunch of kiasu nerds :p). Here, a whole new drama started. We met some other classmates but whom we weren't really close to. They only had a few classes with us as they were from another group. But even so, it did not deter K (Some of you may know who she is, some don't. Just to protect her already tainted reputation, I'm going to just refer to her as 'K') to go watch movies with them. She went with this girl (I'm just gonna call her 'Z' can?) and some of her friends (none of us really know them).

Situation 1
In the library, where it is so silent you can hear a pin drop, stands K, under a sign which says "No mobile phones".(Too bad I don't have a picture to prove)
*already in the middle of a conversation on the phone*

K: Eh, you come and fetch me go out la.. We go makan.. Then you fetch me back to college lar.. (in chinese) (and really loudly)

The WHOLE group of students there (mostly classmates) : SSHHH!!!!

K: *continues talking ever so loudly*

The WHOLE group: SSSHHHHH!!! Eh, this is library la!!!

Situation 2
She meets 'Z' and starts talking...

Z: Eh, your name is Carmen right?
K: YOUR head la.. (so rude.. too much.. *shakes head*)
Z: Then? What's your name?
K: *says her name*
Z: Whatever la.. I don't know your name but I know your name have something to do with car(s) wan la.. Eh what's your number ar?
K: 01x-xxx xxxx
Z: How to spell your name?
K: *spells for her*
Z: Hah? Your name not spelled as c-a-r?

I think by now most of you would have guessed what car this is.

Situation 3
'Z' and gang were packing up their books preparing to leave the library..

Z: We're going to Pyramid to watch 10,000BC (irony totally intended!)
K: Eh, I also wanna go...
Z: Come la..
K: Where you put your files?
Z: Why do you think I bring such a big bag for?
K: Then my files how?
Z: Put in the car la.. What's your problem? *gangsteristically*

The thing that really gets me is how she can just go off with some bunch of people whom she doesn't even know? AND to make things worse she doesn't drive.. If they took her to sell... (probably won't get much out of the sales anyway) but STILL! Doesn't all these go through her brain first? These days anyone, as in ANYONE can do ANYTHING... It's literally dangerous these days to just go out like that with anyone you know very well let alone just a little. In fact, there have been cases where own friends betray their good friends. You never know just how wicked the world is today.. K, you don't LIVE in 10,000 BC, where it's safer.. But then again, considering it's K!! Oh well.. I rest my case.. I had to repeat things I say for heaven knows how many times and STILL she doesn't understand.. Simple things like "It doesn't have to be a Friday in order to go out, right?" That, I repeated like 6 times.. And all 6 times she replies, "Hah?" Goodness gra-sias... Talking to her can vomit blood, like literally..

New Template

I had nothing better to do so I decided to change my blog template. I don't really like it because it's black and so I can't use any dark colour for my fonts PLUS it looks quite cc-fied. Anyway, because I was to lazy to change it back so I'll stick with it for a while.

My mum bought a keyboard and she's been playing non-stop. For those who don't know, I already have a piano at home (currently collecting dust because no one plays it) and she RARELY touches it. Now, she buys this keyboard and she plays it day and night with no ear-phones, mind you. Hopefully, it's not just because it's NEW.. My family has this habit of using new things to the MAX and then it becomes a white elephant. Remember I have a NEW template.. Wonder how long this one's gonna last...

Homework starts piling up especially tax. Goodness knows when I can actually finish it with all my procrastination and weird laziness. Now Mr. Jay told us to read annual reports of companies. Sometimes, I wonder am I doing the right thing taking this course? How can I cut down on coffee when I need it to stay awake and concentrate on whatever the lecturers are saying. Although it doesn't really help that much. Hmm..

Goodbye...

Yesterday 14 of us went to KLIA to see off Zi Jian, who went to New South Wales for his final year in engineering. His flight was at 9.45pm on board MH9143. He first flew to Changi Airport in Singapore where he took another flight to Adelaide. Sure gonna miss you!!

Before that, some of us went for the CF in college. The service was quite ok and people there are friendly. Did enjoy myself abit. =)

Other than that, it's been a normal week..

Note: Happy birthday to Min En.

Sh-ay

It’s been a stressful day week. To add to the pain, I wasn’t feeling very well for these couple of days. Since Saturday, I haven’t eaten any drop of rice. Not because I’m on a diet but because I feel like puking every time I think of eating. Too much to eat, you may say. So, these few days, my lunch or dinner will either be bread or burger (which also has bread) or roti canai (which is also bread) simply because I can’t eat much. Yesterday, I only ate 2 slices of bread and a burger (I’m sort of jelat with roti canai already) for the whole day. Even my mum eats more than me now, which is a miracle, mind you. And I don’t feel hungry at all. Some of you guys say that it’s the stress considering the fact I hardly slept last few days. But thank God, I’m finally feeling better. At least today, I didn’t eat bread only.

Today, Mel had her braces out so she was like rushing to and fro from college and her dental place. She had her retainers on during audit. Me, (who seldom bully people) fought real hard not to tease her on her pronunciations. But, I was weak (maybe coz haven’t been eating) and I gave in to the temptation and now I feel so utterly guilty. NOT!!

Me: Say, she.. Repeat after me, she..

Mel: I can’t sh-ay..

Darren and I just burst into laughter (so bad lar) and Mel hit me *sobs* but I know she was laughing also.. Good thing we were sitting at the back so Mr. Jay didn’t catch us laughing like some banshee. After all, she said it herself. “I talk like Donald Duck,” quotes Mel.

Anyway, that aside, I must really say, she look really good with her braces off. Not that you don’t already look good. =)

Encouragement Through A Psalm

I was quite down this week due to so many things that has happened. It’s has been a really busy and hectic week for me. I hardly had enough sleep. The other day, I did a devotional on how God love me so so much but I seem to take Him too much for granted. I complain that He is not there all the time without realizing He has never left my side. Instead, it has been me who has not been looking and seeking Him. And sometimes, it's like when I have nowhere else to turn to, only then I turn and look to Him. Instead of putting Him first in my priorities, I find other means to solve my problems and when it’s the dead end, then comes the question, “Where are You, God?” And then instead of listening to what He has to say, I go back to my busy and hectic schedule, ignoring Him and then wonder why God hasn’t answered me. Which in fact, I wasn’t even paying attention or listening. Pastor Petrina has preached on this before and just recently I’m re-reminded again about this.

Below is an acrostic psalm I wrote during AIM and though I wrote it some time ago, every time I read it, I’m always reminded of God’s Love for me no matter what happens. And God still uses it to speak to me. The beginning of each line is each alphabet in sequence. Hope it blesses you too.

A life without You is like a vicious cycle, meaningless,

Without hope, without gist, full of bitterness.

But You are there with me all the time,

Through my hurts, heartache and strive.

Ceasing the pain on my own, I am not able,

But for You, oh Lord all things are possible.

Determined to make You Lord of my heart,

From You my God may I never depart.

Every ache, every fear You drive them away,

Your love for me is more than any words can say.

Forever You are faithful in every way,

You’ve always kept the words You say.

Guiding me through the Holy Spirit, to keep in Your ways,
Giving me strength to face each new day.

Hallelujah for all You have done, my God,
You alone are of my praises, oh Lord.

I give You all honour and all praise,
My life to You I raise.

Jesus, You’re my Comfort and my Friend,
I’ll love and trust You till the very end.

Keeping me safe in Your mighty hands each day
You are always there for me every day.

Love, You gave unconditionally,
Continuously and eternally.

My love compared to Yours is nothing,
And yet You embrace it like it means everything.

Nothing and no one can be compared to You,
All glory and worship are only for You.

Offering Your Son to die for me,
Your love has set me from bondage free.

Providing a way for reconciliation,
You suffered pain and humiliation.

Quietness and peace I’ve found through You,
My burdens and cares I’ll lay on You.

Restored me into Your loving arms when I fall,
In times of desperation to You I call.

Saving grace You gave freely,
Out of love You gave Your Son for me.

To be Your child is a privilege You’ve given,
Through Your grace I’m forgiven.

Unworthy I may be to call you Dad,
But You looked through all my faults and bad.

Victory over darkness You gained,
You prevailed over sin and pain.

Willing to take me in Your arms again,
Even though I fail You time and again.

Xeric I am and I long for Your refreshing outpour,
Fill me so I thirst no more.

You touch my heart for all You’ve done for me,
All that you suffered as You hung on that tree.

Zenith of everything in my life is only found through You,
And all is vanity without You.

Results For T3, T4 & T5

I got my T3, T4 and T5 results back and I passed!!

You must understand my happiness as I really really thought I was going to fail T5. I hardly studied and I couldn't do 1 whole essay long question.. So I'm really grateful and thankful to God for helping me pass. All glory to Him really...

I would also like to take this opportunity to thank those who prayed for me. Thanks..

Philippians 4:13
I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.

THANKS!!

Thanks to all who remembered and celebrated my birthday with me yesterday.

Darren, Joshua, Sophie, Eric, Jon, Kenny & Rebecca for having dinner at Chilis. Thanks Darren for fetching me back. And guys, thanks for the ball!!

Mel, Edwin & Khar who came and pick me for bak kut teh, Edwin for driving me around and even ended up getting lost twice!!

All who wished me personally and messaged and called me, THANKS!!

OK.. This is beginning to sound like some Grammy's Award Ceremony..

In the morning, Edwin, Mel and Khar came to pick me up and we went Klang for bak kut teh.. We had a great time and ate too much... Then Edwin drove us to Mei Kim's house and then drop me at church.
After youth, Darren, Josh, Sophie, Eric, Jon, Kenny & Rebecca went to 1u Chilis and had to wait quite long to be seated as it was packed and they wouldn't accept reservations. After that, we went home.

Generally, I was really blessed by you guys who came all out to help me yesterday. And also, I was really overjoyed and extremely happy when MU thrashed Arsenal 4-0!! Good job guys!!

Anyway, thanks guys really... =)

V-Day

February 14th..
This is the day where people send flowers, chocolates, stuff toys to their loved ones. This is the day florists, chocolate makers, stuff toy makers, fancy restaurants, cinemas, wedding planners, hotels, jewelers and all get richer. This is the day people are willing to spend big bucks just to celebrate this occasion. But then again don't we all do that?
Anyway, which reminds me..
Isn't V day ought to be everyday? This shouldn't be the only day you pamper your other half, should it? Of course, when everyone else is doing something EXTRA special on this day, you ought to too, but there are some which the only time you ever see a guy buy something for his gfis on this day. Girls the same.
Though giving gifts are a good way of expressing affection, but love does not all but consist of gifts only.
Personally, I don't insist on something expensive or nice or big.. It doesn't matter.. It can just be small little things done here and there.. After all, they say, it's the heart that counts..
Girls are really that simple.. It's just you guys that just complicate things.. *winks*

All in all... Happy Valentine's Day.. And have a good day..

CNY=Eat Too Much=Fat

After traveling for 2 hours and 45 minutes, I finally arrived at Penang. Thank goodness there wasn't any traffic jam like last year. I woke up at 3.30am yesterday and left KL at 5am. I slept half the journey and when I reached here, hoping I could go back to sleep in a proper bed, my cousin went out to limteh (penang's equivalent of yamcha) with his friends and so we were all stuck outside the house. He finally came home 35 minutes later. But, when I went into the house, I didn't sleep either. Hehe.. My cousin watched some Chinese drama series on DVD and so we marathoned till around 10pm (yes, morning till night). In the process, we finished 4 big tins of kuih kapit and some other CNY cookies. After that, we went for supper (eat again) and then played cards till around 4am this morning. And now my family have all gone out leaving my cousin and I at home finishing more kuih kapit.

I know I'll definitely put on weight this CNY like any other CNYs. I eat and drink non-stop and even though I don't eat much mandarin oranges (I have like 4 boxes and only half of one box is gone) I'll still grow fat blaming it on everything else. I read somewhere in the newspaper few days back how 4 mandarin oranges is equivalent to eating a plate of rice. And I haven't even eaten the reunion dinner yet.

Goodness, I can't continue eating like this. Or maybe I'll just eat less AFTER cny..
Yup.. That sound like a better plan. I'm so not ready to give up my kuih kapit just yet.

Random #3

Today..
I went to Aeon Bukit Tinggi Klang and had KFC for lunch. This reminded me of the time I had KFC with Darren, Mel, and Khar En. I remembered Darren put the bread wrapped with tissue in Khar En's bag.

The next day...

Us: Hey Khar En, did you find anything in your bag ar?
Khar: What? Find what?
Us: Anything wrapped in a tissue?
Khar: Ohh... Ceh.. Tahat wan I throw away already lor... What is it anyway?
Us: What? You threw away something without even looking at what it is first?
Khar: Aiya.. I just see it's not mine ma I throw away laa...
Us: *sweats literally* (who throws away something without looking?)
Us: So.. If next time your boyfriend wraps a diamond ring in a tissue to surprise you and puts it in your bag, you'll just throw it away?
Khar: Aiya.. That time I will go find back la..
Us: Then go find back the thing you found in your bag and threw away la..
Khar: For what? Nothing valuable also..
Us: So next time you'll tell that to your bf also la?
Khar: Aiya(this girl likes to say aiya wan).. If it's diamond ring, I'll go find it la.. Can sell ma..
Us: ... *sweats and immediately faints*

Beware: This girl (Khar En) is not for the faint of heart. The way she talks.. Gosh.. Only she can come out with things like these...

Khar En, this post is for you..

Holidays... At Last...

Recent weeks have drained all the strength in me. 9 hours of classes each day, plus homeworks, research (audit: Mel's favourite subject.. and one of the subjects I dread the most cause it's in the afternoon and it interferes with my sleeping time plus it's boring despite Mr. Jay's desperate efforts to make it interesting), plus driving through some maniac traffic jam each morning, trying to get to class on time so I don't have to pay the 10 bucks. It's the holidays at last.. But somehow it is passing by way tooo fast...

Despite having no class this week and half of next, I still have to *pretend* to busy myself either studying (because tax is ever so confusing) or finishing Ms. Shanta's 'angpow' (which never seems to end). So.. I've planned it all so well (only in my opinion) to get all the work done and STILL have time for play..

I finished T8 and T9 homework already. Yes.. The T8 homework which was SUPPOSED to be able to be completed in ONLY 20 minutes, took me around 2 hours. Of course, I did other stuff in between. Hehe.. So now.. I'm left with T6 (which I will only do last minute) and T7 (which are all objective questions and I've already done half in class that day). Hmm.. I might actually be able to finish everything on time.. So proud of myself for coming up with such a great plan :p

BUT(there's always a but eh?).. I'm the kind of person who seldom stick to the plans I've made (probably one of the reasons why I seldom fulfill my new year resolutions) . So ya....

I'll TRY to stick to the plan this time...

Life Goes On

Does these 3 years mean anything at all? Can one small incident coupled with accumulated hurts destroy these 3 years of what I thought was a strong relationship? Can there be any more room for forgiveness and amends? Is it gone like the wind? Am I making a big mistake I'll soon live to regret? Am I willing to let go? Is everything going to be back to normal again? Am I losing the security I relied a lot upon? Does pride really have to stand in the way? Will life go on the same?

I stayed awake asking myself these few questions with no success in answering them. The miracles have turned into ashes. The memories have faded. Yet.. It still remains deep inside me. It keeps coming back to life every now and then. My mind is bogged by all these thoughts clinging at me and wouldn't let go...

I wish I'm writing this because it was an essay in school but no.. I wish these weren't true but no.. I wish.. I wish..

Soon I'll know if I made a mistake..

But meanwhile life still goes on...