Goodbye...

Yesterday 14 of us went to KLIA to see off Zi Jian, who went to New South Wales for his final year in engineering. His flight was at 9.45pm on board MH9143. He first flew to Changi Airport in Singapore where he took another flight to Adelaide. Sure gonna miss you!!

Before that, some of us went for the CF in college. The service was quite ok and people there are friendly. Did enjoy myself abit. =)

Other than that, it's been a normal week..

Note: Happy birthday to Min En.

Sh-ay

It’s been a stressful day week. To add to the pain, I wasn’t feeling very well for these couple of days. Since Saturday, I haven’t eaten any drop of rice. Not because I’m on a diet but because I feel like puking every time I think of eating. Too much to eat, you may say. So, these few days, my lunch or dinner will either be bread or burger (which also has bread) or roti canai (which is also bread) simply because I can’t eat much. Yesterday, I only ate 2 slices of bread and a burger (I’m sort of jelat with roti canai already) for the whole day. Even my mum eats more than me now, which is a miracle, mind you. And I don’t feel hungry at all. Some of you guys say that it’s the stress considering the fact I hardly slept last few days. But thank God, I’m finally feeling better. At least today, I didn’t eat bread only.

Today, Mel had her braces out so she was like rushing to and fro from college and her dental place. She had her retainers on during audit. Me, (who seldom bully people) fought real hard not to tease her on her pronunciations. But, I was weak (maybe coz haven’t been eating) and I gave in to the temptation and now I feel so utterly guilty. NOT!!

Me: Say, she.. Repeat after me, she..

Mel: I can’t sh-ay..

Darren and I just burst into laughter (so bad lar) and Mel hit me *sobs* but I know she was laughing also.. Good thing we were sitting at the back so Mr. Jay didn’t catch us laughing like some banshee. After all, she said it herself. “I talk like Donald Duck,” quotes Mel.

Anyway, that aside, I must really say, she look really good with her braces off. Not that you don’t already look good. =)

Encouragement Through A Psalm

I was quite down this week due to so many things that has happened. It’s has been a really busy and hectic week for me. I hardly had enough sleep. The other day, I did a devotional on how God love me so so much but I seem to take Him too much for granted. I complain that He is not there all the time without realizing He has never left my side. Instead, it has been me who has not been looking and seeking Him. And sometimes, it's like when I have nowhere else to turn to, only then I turn and look to Him. Instead of putting Him first in my priorities, I find other means to solve my problems and when it’s the dead end, then comes the question, “Where are You, God?” And then instead of listening to what He has to say, I go back to my busy and hectic schedule, ignoring Him and then wonder why God hasn’t answered me. Which in fact, I wasn’t even paying attention or listening. Pastor Petrina has preached on this before and just recently I’m re-reminded again about this.

Below is an acrostic psalm I wrote during AIM and though I wrote it some time ago, every time I read it, I’m always reminded of God’s Love for me no matter what happens. And God still uses it to speak to me. The beginning of each line is each alphabet in sequence. Hope it blesses you too.

A life without You is like a vicious cycle, meaningless,

Without hope, without gist, full of bitterness.

But You are there with me all the time,

Through my hurts, heartache and strive.

Ceasing the pain on my own, I am not able,

But for You, oh Lord all things are possible.

Determined to make You Lord of my heart,

From You my God may I never depart.

Every ache, every fear You drive them away,

Your love for me is more than any words can say.

Forever You are faithful in every way,

You’ve always kept the words You say.

Guiding me through the Holy Spirit, to keep in Your ways,
Giving me strength to face each new day.

Hallelujah for all You have done, my God,
You alone are of my praises, oh Lord.

I give You all honour and all praise,
My life to You I raise.

Jesus, You’re my Comfort and my Friend,
I’ll love and trust You till the very end.

Keeping me safe in Your mighty hands each day
You are always there for me every day.

Love, You gave unconditionally,
Continuously and eternally.

My love compared to Yours is nothing,
And yet You embrace it like it means everything.

Nothing and no one can be compared to You,
All glory and worship are only for You.

Offering Your Son to die for me,
Your love has set me from bondage free.

Providing a way for reconciliation,
You suffered pain and humiliation.

Quietness and peace I’ve found through You,
My burdens and cares I’ll lay on You.

Restored me into Your loving arms when I fall,
In times of desperation to You I call.

Saving grace You gave freely,
Out of love You gave Your Son for me.

To be Your child is a privilege You’ve given,
Through Your grace I’m forgiven.

Unworthy I may be to call you Dad,
But You looked through all my faults and bad.

Victory over darkness You gained,
You prevailed over sin and pain.

Willing to take me in Your arms again,
Even though I fail You time and again.

Xeric I am and I long for Your refreshing outpour,
Fill me so I thirst no more.

You touch my heart for all You’ve done for me,
All that you suffered as You hung on that tree.

Zenith of everything in my life is only found through You,
And all is vanity without You.

Results For T3, T4 & T5

I got my T3, T4 and T5 results back and I passed!!

You must understand my happiness as I really really thought I was going to fail T5. I hardly studied and I couldn't do 1 whole essay long question.. So I'm really grateful and thankful to God for helping me pass. All glory to Him really...

I would also like to take this opportunity to thank those who prayed for me. Thanks..

Philippians 4:13
I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.

THANKS!!

Thanks to all who remembered and celebrated my birthday with me yesterday.

Darren, Joshua, Sophie, Eric, Jon, Kenny & Rebecca for having dinner at Chilis. Thanks Darren for fetching me back. And guys, thanks for the ball!!

Mel, Edwin & Khar who came and pick me for bak kut teh, Edwin for driving me around and even ended up getting lost twice!!

All who wished me personally and messaged and called me, THANKS!!

OK.. This is beginning to sound like some Grammy's Award Ceremony..

In the morning, Edwin, Mel and Khar came to pick me up and we went Klang for bak kut teh.. We had a great time and ate too much... Then Edwin drove us to Mei Kim's house and then drop me at church.
After youth, Darren, Josh, Sophie, Eric, Jon, Kenny & Rebecca went to 1u Chilis and had to wait quite long to be seated as it was packed and they wouldn't accept reservations. After that, we went home.

Generally, I was really blessed by you guys who came all out to help me yesterday. And also, I was really overjoyed and extremely happy when MU thrashed Arsenal 4-0!! Good job guys!!

Anyway, thanks guys really... =)

V-Day

February 14th..
This is the day where people send flowers, chocolates, stuff toys to their loved ones. This is the day florists, chocolate makers, stuff toy makers, fancy restaurants, cinemas, wedding planners, hotels, jewelers and all get richer. This is the day people are willing to spend big bucks just to celebrate this occasion. But then again don't we all do that?
Anyway, which reminds me..
Isn't V day ought to be everyday? This shouldn't be the only day you pamper your other half, should it? Of course, when everyone else is doing something EXTRA special on this day, you ought to too, but there are some which the only time you ever see a guy buy something for his gfis on this day. Girls the same.
Though giving gifts are a good way of expressing affection, but love does not all but consist of gifts only.
Personally, I don't insist on something expensive or nice or big.. It doesn't matter.. It can just be small little things done here and there.. After all, they say, it's the heart that counts..
Girls are really that simple.. It's just you guys that just complicate things.. *winks*

All in all... Happy Valentine's Day.. And have a good day..

CNY=Eat Too Much=Fat

After traveling for 2 hours and 45 minutes, I finally arrived at Penang. Thank goodness there wasn't any traffic jam like last year. I woke up at 3.30am yesterday and left KL at 5am. I slept half the journey and when I reached here, hoping I could go back to sleep in a proper bed, my cousin went out to limteh (penang's equivalent of yamcha) with his friends and so we were all stuck outside the house. He finally came home 35 minutes later. But, when I went into the house, I didn't sleep either. Hehe.. My cousin watched some Chinese drama series on DVD and so we marathoned till around 10pm (yes, morning till night). In the process, we finished 4 big tins of kuih kapit and some other CNY cookies. After that, we went for supper (eat again) and then played cards till around 4am this morning. And now my family have all gone out leaving my cousin and I at home finishing more kuih kapit.

I know I'll definitely put on weight this CNY like any other CNYs. I eat and drink non-stop and even though I don't eat much mandarin oranges (I have like 4 boxes and only half of one box is gone) I'll still grow fat blaming it on everything else. I read somewhere in the newspaper few days back how 4 mandarin oranges is equivalent to eating a plate of rice. And I haven't even eaten the reunion dinner yet.

Goodness, I can't continue eating like this. Or maybe I'll just eat less AFTER cny..
Yup.. That sound like a better plan. I'm so not ready to give up my kuih kapit just yet.

Random #3

Today..
I went to Aeon Bukit Tinggi Klang and had KFC for lunch. This reminded me of the time I had KFC with Darren, Mel, and Khar En. I remembered Darren put the bread wrapped with tissue in Khar En's bag.

The next day...

Us: Hey Khar En, did you find anything in your bag ar?
Khar: What? Find what?
Us: Anything wrapped in a tissue?
Khar: Ohh... Ceh.. Tahat wan I throw away already lor... What is it anyway?
Us: What? You threw away something without even looking at what it is first?
Khar: Aiya.. I just see it's not mine ma I throw away laa...
Us: *sweats literally* (who throws away something without looking?)
Us: So.. If next time your boyfriend wraps a diamond ring in a tissue to surprise you and puts it in your bag, you'll just throw it away?
Khar: Aiya.. That time I will go find back la..
Us: Then go find back the thing you found in your bag and threw away la..
Khar: For what? Nothing valuable also..
Us: So next time you'll tell that to your bf also la?
Khar: Aiya(this girl likes to say aiya wan).. If it's diamond ring, I'll go find it la.. Can sell ma..
Us: ... *sweats and immediately faints*

Beware: This girl (Khar En) is not for the faint of heart. The way she talks.. Gosh.. Only she can come out with things like these...

Khar En, this post is for you..

Holidays... At Last...

Recent weeks have drained all the strength in me. 9 hours of classes each day, plus homeworks, research (audit: Mel's favourite subject.. and one of the subjects I dread the most cause it's in the afternoon and it interferes with my sleeping time plus it's boring despite Mr. Jay's desperate efforts to make it interesting), plus driving through some maniac traffic jam each morning, trying to get to class on time so I don't have to pay the 10 bucks. It's the holidays at last.. But somehow it is passing by way tooo fast...

Despite having no class this week and half of next, I still have to *pretend* to busy myself either studying (because tax is ever so confusing) or finishing Ms. Shanta's 'angpow' (which never seems to end). So.. I've planned it all so well (only in my opinion) to get all the work done and STILL have time for play..

I finished T8 and T9 homework already. Yes.. The T8 homework which was SUPPOSED to be able to be completed in ONLY 20 minutes, took me around 2 hours. Of course, I did other stuff in between. Hehe.. So now.. I'm left with T6 (which I will only do last minute) and T7 (which are all objective questions and I've already done half in class that day). Hmm.. I might actually be able to finish everything on time.. So proud of myself for coming up with such a great plan :p

BUT(there's always a but eh?).. I'm the kind of person who seldom stick to the plans I've made (probably one of the reasons why I seldom fulfill my new year resolutions) . So ya....

I'll TRY to stick to the plan this time...

Life Goes On

Does these 3 years mean anything at all? Can one small incident coupled with accumulated hurts destroy these 3 years of what I thought was a strong relationship? Can there be any more room for forgiveness and amends? Is it gone like the wind? Am I making a big mistake I'll soon live to regret? Am I willing to let go? Is everything going to be back to normal again? Am I losing the security I relied a lot upon? Does pride really have to stand in the way? Will life go on the same?

I stayed awake asking myself these few questions with no success in answering them. The miracles have turned into ashes. The memories have faded. Yet.. It still remains deep inside me. It keeps coming back to life every now and then. My mind is bogged by all these thoughts clinging at me and wouldn't let go...

I wish I'm writing this because it was an essay in school but no.. I wish these weren't true but no.. I wish.. I wish..

Soon I'll know if I made a mistake..

But meanwhile life still goes on...